[here it is] :: AGAIN :: [and it stings like the] :: FIRST TIME ::

[maxasaurusrex]

Something that hardcore frustrates me is when I pay way too much attention to peoples journals. I watch someones journal, and then I watch the post count on their user page, and if the post count goes up but the entries dont, I know there are locked entries. And yeah, I'm just as bad as Mohinder for wanting to know peoples secrets, Im just ten times less transparent about it. I mean, if they had a post count like mine, which I'm pretty sure is close to 150 at that point, people wouldnt notice that I'm locking posts. But if you're at, oh, ten, then its really obvious. Or maybe I just pay too much attention.

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[tiptoe39.livejournal.com]

I was really bad at it, too. To the extent that I was shamed out of the fandom for several months, and I still fuck things up every so often.

It's a matter of trusting that the bad feeling will go away eventually, and it's a matter of realizing that when you post publicly, it can be hurtful to your friend, who might now start thinking, "Max doesn't think I'm a very nice person." So you can be hurting yourself and MAKING the paranoia real even if it wasn't before.

Not a lecture, just my experience, ok?

I have to go now. i'm happy to talk about this more with you.