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Jessika Johnston-Rogerson

D04M09Y08

GENE7

JOURNAL ENTRY ONE

 

To be fairly honest, I didnt learn too much in this particular class. At least, not much about myself. A little bit about the others in the class, mind. Like how superficial a lot of them seem to be. I wont pass judgment quite yet, but an interesting preliminary observation, no doubt. I also learned that it will be an interesting year if people make comments about homosexuals in jest, as was done a few times during the picture experiment. I found myself quite offended. Now, I'll try to hit the four points the sheet I was given wants me to address, but thats simply not how I roll. If I am to “journal” things, I'll write them as they come to me. Stream of consciousness, but not really.

While I'm sure this is truly a great course and can be very beneficial to some of my peers, I will be, and this is no insult to you, bored stupid and under the belief that I'm wasting my time a good portion of the class. Now, I'm sure this makes me a horrible human being, but let me explain. We will be watching the Killing Us Softly videos that I watched in Grade Ten Sociology. We'll be discussing issues I tapped into in my Grade Twelve Sociology course. We will be addressing self esteem issues that I already went through and got over and discussed in Grade Eleven Hairstyling and Esthetics. Its not that its a bad course, on the contrary, its great. I've just done it all before. I dont really like repeating things like this, because once I've gotten through topics like this, I like to leave it at that. No need to pick over your results. I've seen 15 hours of videos regarding eating disorders and depression. I've watched several movies and videos and read several books on self esteem and body image. I have helped three friends through eating disorders, watched my sister go through one, helped countless friends from the brink of suicide due to heavy depression.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that this is city of thought I've been living in my entire life. I've had problems, I've worked through them. To revist and revisit just seems silly. Honestly, If I had to pick a topic I'd like to discuss in class, it would be why people think its so funny to make fun of the sexual orientations of others as though they arent sitting in the classroom right there. I want to know why its not okay to make jokes about peoples appearance, because gosh, wouldnt want to hurt their feelings, but hey, check that fag over there. Yes, your appearance is critical to how you feel about yourself, but there are other aspects too. And its all beauty. Every single thing about a person can be beautiful if they choose to view it as such. I believe that a desire to attain greatness is beautiful, the ability to do what makes YOU feel happy, the ability to be proud of yourself when no one else is, its all beauty. Yes, clear skin and size 6 jeans are certainly a staple of beauty these days, but not mine. Never mine. I will dye my hair or shave my head, I will show my face in my own house where I've been asked to not practice my religion, I will be proud that I can like women and take the abuse that is hurled my way, and I will never ever stop caring for my friends and helping them through their problems. I will get as many tattoos as I see fit and work in every bookstore I feel like because I'm proud of my reading level and ability and that, that my friend, is truly beautiul.