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I feel like a gigantic failure. Just in general.
Im sucking at school, doing badly on tests, floundering on assignments. I have no hope whatsoever in photoshop. Im going to have to come in some saturday where its an open lab all day and just work for hours. I have several outstanding essays to get in, plus several due dates coming up. I asked my teachers if there was any assignments I could do for extra marks and they said no. So I just have to do perfect on everything.
Which, of course, is a problem given my no internet thing. I cant keep going to second cup and buying five dollar teas for a few hours of itnernet. I might as well pay 30 a month and get portable wifi. 'cause I can afford it.
Im going through some sort of motionof things. I've been hanging out a lot at the comic book store, and Im friends with several of the guys there. However, the one who works there, Mints, is expressing a more-than-friendly desire that I just dont reciprocate. He has pretty much clearly said that he just wants to sleep with me. Which, no. Just no.
Will did horrible irreparable things to my self esteem. I dont think I can be with anyone ever again, much less someone who just wants to fuck and go. Im not that kind of person. Done and done.
I feel sub human.
Im sucking at school, doing badly on tests, floundering on assignments. I have no hope whatsoever in photoshop. Im going to have to come in some saturday where its an open lab all day and just work for hours. I have several outstanding essays to get in, plus several due dates coming up. I asked my teachers if there was any assignments I could do for extra marks and they said no. So I just have to do perfect on everything.
Which, of course, is a problem given my no internet thing. I cant keep going to second cup and buying five dollar teas for a few hours of itnernet. I might as well pay 30 a month and get portable wifi. 'cause I can afford it.
Im going through some sort of motionof things. I've been hanging out a lot at the comic book store, and Im friends with several of the guys there. However, the one who works there, Mints, is expressing a more-than-friendly desire that I just dont reciprocate. He has pretty much clearly said that he just wants to sleep with me. Which, no. Just no.
Will did horrible irreparable things to my self esteem. I dont think I can be with anyone ever again, much less someone who just wants to fuck and go. Im not that kind of person. Done and done.
I feel sub human.