[let go] :: WATCHING :: [you]

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard,
a handful of complaints, but I cant help the fact that
everyone can see these scars.

I am, what I want you to want, what I want you to feel,
but it's like no matter what I do, I cant convince you
to just believe this is real

So I let go, watching you turn your back like you
always do, face away and pretend that I'm not,
but I'll be here, 'cause you're all that I've got.

(no subject)

I'm really glad that my phone instincts are up to scratch.

Now that sounds really weird, but let me explain. I sleep a lot, so naturally, I'm going to get calls while I'm sleeping and/or trying to sleep. I wont wake to my alarms, but I will wake to my ringtone. Which, very often, is the exact same god damn tone.

And people will go; "Oh, I'm sorry! Did I wake you?" And I'll say yes, and they will keep talking.

And if I should manage to get through that phonecall, heaven forbid I fall back asleep because I will not remember it to save my life. I frequently check my recieved calls when I wake up to make sure that I'm not hallucinating.