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This feels like it'll be a bad night. I get them sometimes. Where it feels like I want to crawl up the fucking walls and explode or disappear or something. It gets so bad. I'll be overwhelmed with sadness and I cant sleep. I dont know why I get like this. I'm pretty much awesome any other time. But at nights, when there is very little to distract me, it just gets retarded. I just feel like melting away.