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Its okay. Its only another year of being a an outcast to the outcasts. Its only twelve more months of going to school, working your ass off, having teachers that bitch you out for every god damn mistake and classmates who dont want to be your partner. Its one more year of having no friends. But its fine. I can fucking dig it. Not like its a new routine.
My faith dwindles. In everything. Im not sure if I even want to be here anymore. This seemed like such a good idea. I could get a broad spectrum education, get the massage certification that I want. I'd have my friends and my boyfriend. I'd have my apartment and my pets. But this isnt what I wanted. It'll follow me if I back down though. I have to stick it through. I dont believe in anything anymore.
All my friendships can be carried out over text message. My family does nothing but fight amongst itself. Im a number with a name no one can spell at school. Im paying to be told what not to do at home. This is bullshit. I've never seen a relationship not suck, and despite the massive chasm that comes with being lonely, I will never be in a relationship. No one will ever want to be with me, and I will make it a point not to be with anyone.
My faith dwindles. In everything. Im not sure if I even want to be here anymore. This seemed like such a good idea. I could get a broad spectrum education, get the massage certification that I want. I'd have my friends and my boyfriend. I'd have my apartment and my pets. But this isnt what I wanted. It'll follow me if I back down though. I have to stick it through. I dont believe in anything anymore.
All my friendships can be carried out over text message. My family does nothing but fight amongst itself. Im a number with a name no one can spell at school. Im paying to be told what not to do at home. This is bullshit. I've never seen a relationship not suck, and despite the massive chasm that comes with being lonely, I will never be in a relationship. No one will ever want to be with me, and I will make it a point not to be with anyone.
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