[i can feel my heart beat through my] :: CHEST ::

Im having a hard time not thinking that this is goodbye. And I know it should be, but I dont want it to be.

I talked to him, told him that I wanted him to continue to be some part of my life. I didnt want this to be our last days, hours together. I've kept control. I've done well. But he just walked right through with maybe five sentences of dialogue and I dont want that to be the end.

I still love him. I always will. He says he wants me to move on but...I think it'll take a while. Im just unable to connect with people anymore, making me draw in on the connections I already have.

I dont want this to be goodbye.