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[maxasaurusrex]

 I'm not too sure about this Drama thing.

I've never done drama before. And its kinda obvious. And I can be loud and retarded as much as the next person, but I feel like an outsider. I feel like I have no right to break into this scene. These people worked to get here, and all I did was wax poetic about doing anything to get in. And for what?

Its the same way I feel about being new here. I feel as though I have no right to be here. All these people knew eachother since elementary school. Who am I to barge onto the scene and change everything? In that regard, I'll always be on the outside looking in. They have pasts with eachother. They dont with me. Hell, a good number of them dont even have a future with me. 

And its always been that way. I dont have a past with anyone because I was never anywhere long enough to make one. So then what? All of these people with their pasts and their connections and where does that leave me?

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